Saturday, November 23, 2019

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it comes at the most 
inconvenient times. 
like when you’re feeling 
down on yourself. 
the weight gain. the declined 
amazon credit card 
application. the loneliness...
that’s when it manifests its 
ugly head, 
sending a jarring reminder, 
like the obligatory 
alarm waking you 
from your morning slumber, the 
realization that 
you’ve wasted too 
much time worrying about 
the wrong shit.
-bdapoet


Saturday, November 17, 2018

Speak it into existense

it was a rainy night in november
when i fell in love with your smile
you said my eyes were beautiful 
and we left the night to a simple kiss
nothing more
no pressure
you held my hand as if you’ve known me all your life
I liked that.

a year later, i still feel the same.

mister time please take your time
i’m in no rush
knowing this is my forever
with him.

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

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I only make jokes to distract myself
From the truth, from the truth
From the truth, the truth being that
I love you

Not like the generic Valentine’s-Day
Romance-Movie-Novel type love but the
Insane willing to kill-rob-steal type love

The love that does not comprehend
end, over, done, finished

The love that leads to the purchase of a
firearm, knife, black roses and white rabbit

The love that your mother warned you about
mentally, emotionally, verbally, physically abusive

The love that leads me to
sniff your underwear and socks the
watch you as you sleep type love

studying every line on your face
every hair on your head
your feet- each toe
that kind of love
i love you

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To know self is to forgive self.
Release those feelings of shame, guilt, hurt, self-condemnation.

You were made perfectly imperfect.
Your task is to live YOUR life to the fullest and best imaginable for YOU.
Your situation and circumstances are not happenstance, they are real and customized just for you.
You are POWER, you possess everything you'll ever need and want.
If you are unhappy, unsatisfied, unfulfilled...
You can change it all and create and live the life you desire.

Don’t determine your self-worth and purpose by observing and competing with those around you. Their story is not yours.
Look within, you’ll find your purpose there, and only then will you be able to author the life you were destined to live.

No matter your belief, background, or situation, you are powerful, beautiful, magical.
Don’t be so hard on yourself.
You are a representation of glory in human form.

Now ease your mind and free it; rid it of all those contaminant thoughts, those things that won’t allow you to live fully.
Those things that keep you from being great, from being happy; let them go.
You’ve learned, you’re learning, you’re wiser.
It’s okay.
It’s all part of the process.

To know self is to forgive self; forgive yourself.
Love yourself.
It’s okay.
It’s gonna be okay.
-bdapoet

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When rain and love
falls in your lap at
the same time Suddenly
you enjoy getting wet

Soggy jeans and socks
bring smiles in stormy
weather as the sun
dries drenched doubt

Smiles replace frowns;
We are never bored
Even when four walls
close in on us leaving

nothing but breaths and
stares. I could never
tire from looking into your
big brown beautiful eyes

I can’t be alone, don’t wanna
leave you alone Even if it’s
wrong to sample you
while you’re sleeping.