Thursday, April 15, 2010

so what...

i could not look up at him
as he pumped my mouth full
swimming seamen in saliva
proclaiming their claims to life
lead by self motivation
the same motivation that propelled
me to hurry here upon my knees
beseeched to his kingliness

is this what addiction feels like?

Sunday, April 11, 2010

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I used to imagine how it would be...being with you....
No boundaries or questions or complications...
No algae covered swimming pools or
Broken washers filled with soured clothes

I used to imagine how it would be....being with you...
No long drawn out speeches no alibis
No trials with biased jurors waiting to find me
Guilty of loving You in spite of You

I used to imagine what it would be like...being with you...
You who once turned my world into a strawberry banana smoothie
Now a shitty pull up diaper crawling about on a dirty floor in a
hot damp project apartment running radiator in June

I used to imagine what it would be be with you...
Odors show no shame floating above empty
Champagne bottles adjacent to dusty white china plates
Glistening bodies covered in sweat resting silently

I used to imagine how it would be....until I had you
Far from fraud proof money back guarantee untrue
Contemplative decisions to be made before
Compromising my identity and my closet space