situation such as this

nothing will come of this

my mind toys with the

optimism of a mustard seed

seeing only the possibility

of positivity

but my heart knows for

certain that chivalry is dead

lifeless like Jesus on the

cross in an old rural

baptist church

dusty purple pews

who knew you would be

here laying beside me

not out of want but of need

i need more

like goldfish in an

abandoned tank

more algae than water

i wanna breathe and

believe that

something will come of this

but chivalry is dead

it wasn’t love we just made

just a protein mess at best

our eyes never met

regret after regret

but at this moment we

both need each other

too lazy to live the truth

taunting thoughts tossed in

tissues  and flushed down toilets

unlimited kush

makes even the worse

situation bearable

a situation such as this

Friday After Next...Ms. Pearly Audition Tape

Still Dreaming

I’ve spent spent summer nights
Playing in the snow
Forgetting the importance of time
Forgetting rhyme and reason
Beaming with euphoria
Chapped white lips
Damn I’m sexy

Walking down dirty
Dimly lit peach tree streets
Looking for someone
Just as lonely and alive
As me
Floating above misery
Where have all the birds gone?

Rats are bold at 6am
Never minding passing humans
Passing fire hydrants
Forgetting the importance of
Hydration and rest
No rest for the geeked and weary

This old heart and red eyes of mine
Have seen and felt enough pain
No matter how worn my shoes become
I can’t walk it out
Work it out
Self medicating until my nose collapse

Perhaps this pain
My pain
I’m meant to feel
Perhaps this life
My life
I’m meant to live

Record keeper and saboteur of
Wounds
Post traumatic stress
Popping purple pills
Pursuing a purpose driven life
Even if my dreams at times become living nightmares
Damnit
At least I’m dreaming

someone to watch over me (090613)

where are the boys who enjoy
bestbuy and bilal
and possess a non obsessive
sense of style
where they at?

where are the dudes
who eat fruit but don’t necessarily act
like one..well maybe only when beyonce comes on
but everyone gets a pass on that one
where you at?

where are the men willing to grind
obtain sustain and maintain
unafraid to use their brain for
the betterment of all mankind?
this guy i must find!

sexy is he who’s unafraid to
smile at passing strangers or
pet playing puppies in public parks
while contemplating the origins of time
damn I hope he’s fine!

leprechauns mermaids and unicorns
inspire the fancy of artist
just as the possibility of love
ignites the heart's fire

desires don’t disappear like
hop scotch grids on side walks after it’s rained
nor has my heart lost the desire to
find love once again

possible (090613)

the impossible is no longer part of my tongue's pronunciation
proclamation is non stoic
settling for bullshyt unworthy of my time
tired have i become of non triumphant fanfare

false trumpets do kings any good
greatness is my purpose
pursuing meaning in dark ghost filled kingdoms
killing my vision visiting those unwilling to see

selfishness within them selves
serving speedy satisfaction
suffer the little children who grew up believing
santa claus had forgotten them

tough does the heart become
bitter does the heart become
broken hearts can be undone
unlike stubborn grown men and christians

criticizing constantly the actions of others
only to realize that this life was meant to be lived
lovingly and with the liberty of free choice
choose ye this day whom ye will serve

surely the strong will choose
compassion and the unimaginable
unexplainable unlimited life giver
great light bearer; creator of all things

thankful am i for insight and understanding
unplugging myself and life from the impossible
idiocentric norms that limit self from seeing
superbly how wonderful this life really is