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To know self is to forgive self.
Release those feelings of shame, guilt, hurt, self-condemnation.

You were made perfectly imperfect.
Your task is to live YOUR life to the fullest and best imaginable for YOU.
Your situation and circumstances are not happenstance, they are real and customized just for you.
You are POWER, you possess everything you'll ever need and want.
If you are unhappy, unsatisfied, unfulfilled...
You can change it all and create and live the life you desire.

Don’t determine your self-worth and purpose by observing and competing with those around you. Their story is not yours.
Look within, you’ll find your purpose there, and only then will you be able to author the life you were destined to live.

No matter your belief, background, or situation, you are powerful, beautiful, magical.
Don’t be so hard on yourself.
You are a representation of glory in human form.

Now ease your mind and free it; rid it of all those contaminant thoughts, those things that won’t allow you to live fully.
Those things that keep you from being great, from being happy; let them go.
You’ve learned, you’re learning, you’re wiser.
It’s okay.
It’s all part of the process.

To know self is to forgive self; forgive yourself.
Love yourself.
It’s okay.
It’s gonna be okay.
-bdapoet

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When rain and love
falls in your lap at
the same time Suddenly
you enjoy getting wet

Soggy jeans and socks
bring smiles in stormy
weather as the sun
dries drenched doubt

Smiles replace frowns;
We are never bored
Even when four walls
close in on us leaving

nothing but breaths and
stares. I could never
tire from looking into your
big brown beautiful eyes

I can’t be alone, don’t wanna
leave you alone Even if it’s
wrong to sample you
while you’re sleeping.

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your beautiful face has
over-aroused my senses
so many things to see
taste touch feel love i

imagine your body
pressed against mine
the many warm things id
feel hold taste trust i

can’t find the courage
to talk to you my
watering mouth is
void of words like

libraries on sundays
colorless hitchcock films i
cant bring myself to say some
thing more profound than
hello.
-bdapoet
#hello

Might Be You

Ode to Pride 010617

I sniff my fingers and lick them slowly wishing they were you.
Nothing’s the same.

I changed my hair from brown to blue hoping to revive the you in me, I was fooled.

How foolish I am  pretending I could reinvent the experience created the night our lips locked like deer antlers; the wilderness never belonged to me and neither do you.

Might as well handle this hard on cause you ain’t coming through.

God is Trying To Tell You Something

Another sleepless night
Where has sleep gone?
(Can’t sleep at night and you’re wondering why
Maybe God is trying to tell ya something)
Well I’m listening.

The all night itching is becoming more and more
Unbearable as I scratch my skin until it bleeds
Leaving behind small sores reminiscent of
Chicken pox and ashes
How did I get here?

I still won’t bend but had I known cheap gin,
Whiskey, and the notion of invincibility would  lead me here
I would have better tended to my own affairs and
Less time on Facebook tending to theirs.
But it’s too soon to write my end…

Until then
I am up listening to crickets and
Listening for the Lord
Shhh…
God is trying to tell me something.
-bdapoet

unpredictable

it’s unpredictable; this pain
like eggs falling from the sky onto
sizzling cement summer sidewalks
like silverbacks enclosed in
cement cages artificial forest
frustration

the process
the preparation
the surrender
the faith
thou will be done
chief surgeon and healer of us all
my arms and wings are stretched
i’m ready when you are
the trip

why do we fight it like denial
your gay child
your cheating spouse
soon to be foreclosed house...

just fly away to heaven brother
save a place for me brother
put in a word for me

like apple juice the blood flows
from me a small scratch or sore
with the power of volcanoes erupting
on abysmal sea floors where the sun
has never had the pleasure of heating
it reminds me of the power i possess
as product of creation

the pain slips away like thieves after
intrusions no where to be found
im lost in prayer counting stars
meditation and music
calming myself for next time.